For the past 3 months I have learned a lot about myself, both mentally and physically. Mentally, I learned that if I truly want to succeed I need to treat this journey like a marathon and not a sprint. Physically, I learned that I don’t possess the attributes I so badly want to gain. Patience and Persistence is the name of this game. Patience and Persistence is needed to win the game of life.
Last time I posted I explained how I was starting off a new job and near my new job was a gym I joined. I was actually beginning to get into the flow of working out again. I would do kickboxing classes and fitness boot camp classes. Everything was going well and I saw my stamina going back up. I really felt like I was getting into my groove again.
Then I sustained an injury at the gym. I was doing sprints then all of a sudden I felt my legs give out of me and I fell straight the floor. I fell on the floor where there was a turf out and scrapped my shin. I began to bleed immediately but since I was already in the flow of the class, I continued. All I did at the time was run water over the scrape and put a gauze pad and tape it up with 2 bandages. After the workout, I saw it was more serious than I thought as I just kept bleeding. I thought to myself it won’t be too bad, I’ll just take care of the scrape and I’ll at most be back at the gym working out again in a week… I was very wrong.
The scrape took off a good amount of skin in front of my shin. It was several weeks where I was tending to this cut. I did not bother to work out for the fear of making the cut worse. I told a good friend of mine about it and he asked me why I was going all out. I told him that do for pride, if I see the other members going full out I want to do it too. But he explained to me there is nothing wrong with going at this at my OWN pace. This was a tough truth to grasp. Mentally, I feel like I can go from 0 to 100 but physically all I can really go is from 0 to 20 at this moment.
After my injury fully healed I tried to get back into the same routine but by then it was too late. I reverted back to my old ways again. I went back to the “Oh, I will just go full out at the gym next week, let me not do anything for the rest of the week” mindset. Also add into the fact I started constantly ordering restaurant food along with my coworkers at lunch every day. My diet and workout routine was completely shot. I would think that I could finally switch it around for next week, or the week after next, or the week after that, then, a month just passes by and I done nothing at all.
Another thing I kept getting these 3 past months were epiphanies. A lot of soul searching thoughts ran through my mind. Like, do I really want to live my life like this for the rest of my existence? Is this really my ceiling and I have nothing more to give? Are you afraid to succeed at this? All of these questions ran through my mind and I really do feel like I know the answers. Of course, I truly believe I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this, I have no ceiling on my true potential, I am willing to give this and any endeavor I embark on 1000% and HELL NO, I’m not afraid to succeed.
But I needed my actions to double down on my words. So I decided to invest in better gym equipment. Create better week schedule to follow for myself and buy video equipment. What do I need video equipment for you ask? I plan to document my journey on video now. That means little social media clips of me working out, video confessions and video weigh-ins. Not only that but I plan on making a full blow documentary as well, which was one of the originally ideas for One’s Own Will. I am going full out this time. NO BREAKS, NO EXCUSES, NO DISSAPOINTMENTS. Even though I don’t get the comments I am looking for, I know I have people reading my blogs rooting for me to win and I can’t let them down. I CANNOT LET MYSELF DOWN.
So everyone please like my photos, shares my videos, and leave comments to push me to move forward and better. Check me if I am slacking as well because meaningful critiques is essential for personal accountability. Also please use the hashtag #onesownwill to highlight any journey or goal you want to achieve or even to just give me a shout out.
3/10/19: 274.0 lbs; BMI: 43.5
6/16/19 : 284.4 lbs; BMI: 45.2
GAINED: 10.4; BMI: 1.7
I think you should do weekly meal plans and this will help you stay focus on clean eating. You have to remember that it’s 80% diet and 20% gym.
Thank You, do you know any popular meal plans?
Very nice write-up. I absolutely appreciate this site. Stick with it!
Thanks and I have. I hope you can check out the updated site.