Weeks 29-35: 7/29/18 – 9/16/18

First, let me apologize for the long absence. I don’t have a legit excuse for it such as I was busy or an emergency happened. Quite simply, and yes it is a terrible excuse, but I just fell off track. I didn’t fall off track because I forgot; I fell off track because I was not giving it any effort at all.

To be more specific I had a mindset of “its ok Will, pig out today, I will just start out fresh tomorrow”. This mindset is what I feel has prevented me from truly reaching my full potential my entire life. I am pretty sure you know this same mindset, as a lot of people in the world think the same. Tomorrow turns into next week which then turns into next month which then turns into next season which then turn into next year.

What makes it worse is that I realized that I was falling into the same trap and really didn’t do anything about it. I just thought you know what, this time it will be different. But deep down inside I knew it wasn’t going to be. I was just going to fail reaching my goal and just stay with the status quo. Not even challenge myself to be better, just say hey at least I tried. I hate this mindset so much and I feel like a fraud even being able to have an audience.

I gained 8 lbs. in the month of August and looking at that scale cut deep into my soul. 8 months have gone by and I felt like I didn’t even accomplish anything. When I finally was able to pick up a little momentum I threw it away immediately. I had to sit back and realize I am my own biggest enemy. That I am not going to reach any sort of my true potential until I am able to look in the mirror and say to myself I want more out of me.

Change we want starts from within ourselves. If we can win the battle inside of us we will be able to take on the world headstrong. With a quarter of the year left, I have decided to do just that. Not only do what I can to salvage the year and get a healthier but also fight the battle within myself. That battle of complacency, laziness and apathy.

I ask you to not give up on me, and have faith that I can pull this off. I ask you to not give up on me as I know you have faced the same struggle with yourself during your life as well. Only difference is I am sharing my story with the public, which is not an easy thing to do by the way.  I knew it was going to be a long and tough journey when I started this, I didn’t know it would be this tough. Most of all I ask you to not give up on me because I have not given up on myself.   

7/29/18: 274.5 lbs; BMI: 43.6

9/16/18: 282.2 lbs; BMI: 44.8

GAINED: 7.7 lbs; BMI: 1.2