I took a long hiatus but I am back and I am ready to continue my Journey. The last time I posted which was Halloween last year, I had a lot of ideas and plans in my head but not being able to figure out how to get them to come in fruition was very frustrating to me. I did not fall off but I decided to take a step back and get back into a groove for myself. And I must admit I was able to learn some crucial things with myself during that time.
The point of “Witness my Journey into Fitness” was for me to broadcast my entire process of losing weight and getting fit. I did learn that these weekly posts helped me stay on track but I truly never felt in control of my process. There were points when I was just posting just for the sake of saying at least I threw up a post. I knew deep down I wanted to do this but mentally I was not there. I felt these posts truly did not have any meaning to them.
Then one weekend in last October I saw gained an online troll. At first I was honored that someone took time out of their life to talk junk under my posts but then I came to the realization this person was a complete stranger and most likely have no life at all to troll me under all of my posts. When I mean all of my posts, I mean ALL of my posts. I was not mad as I clearly won’t ever find out who the person is but it did make me think what I am doing. It made me feel like I never put my all into this and that is pretty sad as this is right here, belongs to me, is operated by me and its success is solely on me.
So I did what I always do, took a negative and used it to as fuel for me to turn it around. I wanted to use all of the hate I received, look at it as just criticism and put that energy into making a better product. So subconsciously I took a hiatus. Now the plan was to keep posting every week but the more I put it off, the more I realized I had to come correct and produce the best product I can.
I started to do little things every day to change my habits. First thing I did was develop a solid morning routine. I would first wake, and turn on a motivational video on my TV. Listening and watching positive images as right after I wake up has positively changed my mindset around. Instead of looking at social media or the news, I am controlling how I fuel my mind early in the morning. Then I started to stretch and do push-ups and sit-ups. First I started off doing 5 each, to just break the mold of what I already haven’t been doing. Then the next week it went to 10, then the next week it went to 15, then 20, then 25 and now I do 30 push-ups and sit-ups in one set every morning. I want to keep it this way because I would rather take one step at a time and know where I’m moving forward than try to take a huge step forward miss a step, fall down and have to start all the way back at the beginning.
I finish out my morning reciting my daily aspirations to myself in the mirror. I also developed the mindset to always make good decisions on the spot. By that I mean, if I presented with a choice, I make a decision that I feel will be positive and keep me in a positive direction. I no longer have the mindset, “oh, I can just fix that tomorrow, or tomorrow I will start living better.” This has helped me out tremendously to not just feeling better but doing better as well.
This mindset has helped me get a new job. My job before was a long commute from my residence and the commute definitely took a toll on me. I felt like I never could really get into a groove because of the long commute and never have a solid schedule I can commit to. I am proud to announce that not only is my job closer home but there are a couple of gyms nearby it. I have already signed up with one of them. It is called Warrior Fitness and it has boot camp and kickboxing classes. I have been to 2 classes and I felt exhausted and sore after both of them but I felt great too. This will definitely be great for me because there really won’t be any excuse to develop a solid workout regime. I know this because last time I signed up for a gym that was close to a job a worked at I was extremely committed to it and the results showed.
Looking into the future I know I the obstacles and hurdles will come but I have the mindset of a winner right now and I plan to keep it for the rest of my life.
3/3/19: 279.8 lbs; BMI: 44.5
